So, it has been about a year since I went back to work full time after having the Lil' Tiger. How am I doing? I am doing great. I changed jobs twice in a span of a year and I couldn't be more happier.
I think that if you are going to go to work full time and leave your child at daycare EVERY SINGLE DAY, the job that you go to has to be worth it and makes you happy. I found this out the hard way. I am not going to go into the specifics, but you can read it here. This I think is very very important for a working mum to be able to go to work and not be made to feel guilty for having a child.
I had to quit from the second job because it was starting to effect me emotionally. I thought I could handle Family Law but I thought wrong. I constantly tell myself to detach from all the files that I was handling but I just couldn't. It was too real for me. I mean of course it was real, people are living through the pain of separation and divorce. It hit home to me because these cases often involves children AND that was one thing I couldn't detach from. My heart was aching for all the pain and suffering these kids were going through. It was hard for me to get up and go to work every morning. I feel like I was being forced into a difficult situation. I always made excuses for not going to work and pulling as much sick days as I can because I just couldn't deal with clients. So I left.
After a long Christmas break, I started a new job. This job was brilliant. No involvement with the emotional side of life. I love that my current job has other working mums as well. My colleagues are an amazing bunch of people. We are always laughing and sharing stories about what our children did or did not do. I love that this office looks after working mothers (we recently celebrated one of our colleague's 20 years with the company!) 20 years is a long time for someone to be in a company these days. So it goes to show that this company is certainly doing something right.
I no longer look for excuses for not wanting to go to work. In fact it's the total opposite. I look forward to going to work EVERY SINGLE DAY now. I do not feel as much guilt leaving the Lil' Tiger at day care 5 days a week. I feel like it is worth it.
Working full time makes me appreciate the time that I spend with the Lil' Tiger. Every weekend I look for things that I can do with her, like going for a play at the park or to the local farmer's market or just pottering around in our tiny container garden watering plants and pulling weeds.
So there you go. My working life so far. How have you been?